And that's fine. I love Manhattan. I loved living in Manhattan. I haven't really connected too well/too much with people here... so it's not such a great loss for me.
But (you know with me there's always a but. I'm always over thinking everything, so there always has to be a "but"!)
You know, "we" talk about diversity & how it's so great... and how living in the city.. (manhattan) it's so diverse. And it is. Relative to Montana. But relative to Queens? Not so much. I get on the train here & there are all sorts of people. From all sorts of backgrounds. I get on the train on the Upper West side? Black. White. Latin. That's it. And I love having that diversity. It makes me feel more.... real, I guess. The real world. Not what I think of the Manhattan bubble... a borough that is turning into one made up of the very rich and the very poor, one which is turning into a giant shopping mall with luxury apartments... that most people, on most incomes, cannot afford to shop in.
I look at my kids' school, I look at the friends they have: all different types. Nice kids. Good kids. Sweet kids. I go into the school, the staff there greets me, they know my kids, I can talk to the Assistant Principal about my kids. She knows them. This is a public school. In NYC. But it's also a small community school, far from being big and uncaring.
So ok. Because I have nothing else to worry about, I'm thinking about that now. Siiiggghh..... Do I really want to move? What will that mean? What sort of kids will my kids become if they grow up in Manhattan? (My parents nearly bought a house in Great Neck...before they bought the house where I grew up.. For those of you who know Long Island, Great Neck is vastly different from where I grew up. Vastly. I would have been a different person, for sure. [Or at least had much more designer clothing!])
I don't know. It's really important to J to live in Manhattan, and that certainly would not be a hardship for me...living right near a park, walk to everything, closer to work... But.
Just thinking. As usual.
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