Friday, August 11, 2006


Total vent post - so bear (bare? I never know, neither ever looks right to me...) with me. I picked up the kids today from X. He looks at me with this smirk and says: "And oh, they haven't been bathed, or fed. Sorry, I'm not Gwen [sitter]... and I guess you don't really do to much feeding of them, do you? What do you do?"

I just look at him. I say to the kids, "Oh, ok - go back with Daddy - he still has to give you dinner" but X is already walking away, and the kids were already walking towards home.

So I'm doing the ole internal seethe. Then the kids tell me they just saw "Monster House." So not appropriate for them. ANd I probably wouldn't have cared that much... but I was already so pissed off...

And the thing is - what makes it so much more frustrating - is I can't really even "yell" at him about it. He just doesn't hear. Doesn't understand. It was the whole context of our relationship - I'd ask for help w/the kids and his respose: "But I'm exhausted from work." When I'd respond that I'm exhausted, too he'd reply "but your job isn't nearly as tiring as mine. I have to be on all the time - a journalist, always, digging, digging, digging" I'd remind him that I'm at school, doing field work, and taking care of two kids - and he'd say yes, but how many hours are your classes, and Gwen does all the work, and your field work isn't "work." Never heard. Never understood. Ever.

So I know, I'd be wasting my energy on debating this with him. THis much I've learned over the years... but I still haven't figured out what to do with that frustration!

Even more frustrating is the fact that I can't seem to upload any pictures - and I had the BEST Frustration picture! The best! Take my word for it!!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

It's been a long time...

And SO much has happened... let's see... Well - took the kids for their yearly check up. Both are (knock on wood) healthy. Max is still solidly 50th percentile and Nathan is still below the curve... but following it exactly. Actually, his doctor said that since the bone x-ray of his hand showed that he had the bone age of a two year old, and that his height/weight is the same as a two year old's... that it's good. They say that it means he will probably have a "spurt" at some point...

BUT - for the first time Nathan actually said something to me about being "little." and how he goes to the doctor to help him get big. He also said that kids in his class tell him that he is "little." (But then also tells me stories about how the "girls" gang up on him and beat him up.. which upon talking to his teachers I found out is entirely untrue...) But it got me thinking about how his height might start to impact him... and when/if do you think about the hormone shots?!?

Then I said to Max: "I think I'll ask the doctor about bedwetting -to see if she has any ideas..." And he responded quickly with: "NO! NO Way! I'll be embarrassed!!!" (he's only 6!) So I promised I wouldn't... but of course the Dr. brought it up and Max shot me DAGGERS!

Then there's the exciting bit about Max's old sitter going out with Max, Nathan and the X last weekend. They didn't want to tell me at first - the kids - but when I asked point blank, Max told me... THe thing is, I totally don't trust her. I can totally imagine her saying something to them like "Don't tell your mom that we spent time together..." So, told the X & after a bit of ... ahem... discussion - he agreed.

I have a very strong feeling that this will never die...

Why won't this let me upload any photos?!?

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

My Heuristic Exercise

Good word, huh, Heuristic? Don't come upon that very often. Just like to keep things on a high intellectual plane (plain?) :) here.

So, tell me what I'm like, what I'm really really like! (Don't reach through the computer screen and punch me, please!)

Power Rangers Theme Song

Music video for the Power Rangers Theme Song.

So, does anybody think this will be my kids when they grow up? How funny is it?!?

From Max's Show

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Ok, so, is that how it is?

I get anonymous posters on my blog?!? And I have to guess who they are?!? Ok.... I guess.... L.C.? Ok. EIther L.C. or Gwen? Or.... Ahhh, too much pressure this early!

Have a later day today - taking the kids for their yearly check up. The earliest I could get was 11:00 am... and of course when I'm on vacation the doctor is on vacation, and you can't have the appointment earlier than last year 'cause of insurance....

Nathan woke up last night, screaming for me to find him his car. I told him that there was no way in heck I'd look for his car at 1:00 am, and that he needs to go to sleep. He screamed for about 10 minutes, then went to sleep.

THen, 3:15 am the phone rings. I try to see the caller id -- but for some reason my eyes just could not focus... So, I answered. "Um, Hello?" "Pussycat? (Ok, yes, my dad calls me "pussycat' Wanna make something of it?!) We're HERE! We had a great flight, and we just wanted to let you know that we're in our cabin!" "Umm, it's 3:15 am." (My parents are going on a cruise of Alaska.) Long pause. "Oh. We reset our clocks." "Ok, well, it's still 3:15 am." "Oh. Well, we had a great flight, and the cabin looks great..." In the background I hear: "David! Let her go back to sleep! Call her tomorrow!!" "Oh, oh, right. Well, I'll let you go back to sleep...."


Sunday, August 06, 2006

New post

So I started this whole post, and it began to get so long, and so rambly, and seemed to take me sooooooo long to get to the point that I realized I was even boring myself as I was writing it. So - deleted it.

You let me know if you'd like a long and rambly post about manners - and I'd be glad to re-write it. :)

So anyhow, I present herewith a brief and to the point post. Basically a complaint. Basically a vent. No point to it, really - because it's not surprising... but it just pissed me off.

The X. He's met somebody. So, we've been kinda emailing back and forth a bit about it. I asked him what she does & he answers: "An executive Assistant. She makes 80k. Works on wall street."

On the surface: I know. Nothing. But knowing X.... it was such a jab! "See how she makes so much as an Exec. Ass't. and you make just 'bout half that as a social worker..."


Hamster Wheel Gone Wrong

Don't run too quickly....